urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:addict_of_any . addict_of_any 2005-12-02T18:04:56Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:addict_of_any:2519 2005-12-02T18:04:56Z 2005-12-02T18:04:56Z home again statesboro still sucks, but some of the people are still great urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:addict_of_any:2063 2005-10-28T16:40:32Z 2005-10-28T16:40:32Z i hate gainesville police dept. they suck<br />75 ina 45<br />defensive driving school - 75 $<br />fines and fees - 490$<br />lawyer fees - 500$<br />the price of keeping my licence - TOO FUKIN MUCH!<br /><br />anyhoo i figured id come check my email and look and the evil livejournal.<br />since my place of employment has blocked such sights as livejournal and hotmail and aim.<br />anyhoo<br /><br />if u hate me comment plz. if u dont hate me. comment. hell if u reallllly hate me u wont read this which defeats the purpose of me writing this. <br /><br /><br />p.s. whatever ive done, which is to much to decipher, im sorry.....u know who<br />all i can do is what u want me to do....nothing.<br /><br />hell and anyhoo if someone wants to call me and say hey or bitch me out the hard way 678-859-0298 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:addict_of_any:1926 2005-05-12T18:58:08Z 2005-05-12T18:58:08Z ive relized there are 3 kinds of people on this planet. the ones that make things happen. the ones that watch what happens and the other ones who wonder what the hell just happened?. i think im always in the dark and dont know whats going on half the time untill it slaps me in the face., wierd concept to think about in my screwed up head, but ill maybe come to a conclusion in the morning because im busy today.<br />will urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:addict_of_any:1607 2005-04-26T17:42:24Z 2005-04-26T17:42:24Z i start thinking sometimes, which is shouldnt, its dangerous to my health. i relize how much crap i throw out to ppl i live w/ on a daily basis just to say somthing or anything to make me sound like a better person. i come to belive i only have 2 brain cells now. one manafacturing bullshit and the other buying it.<br />the program im in is the best program in the southeastern united states, simply for one reason...the man who runs it. this dude has 15 years clean and started w/ nothing whatsoever to his name except the clothes on his back and an addiction. he now today, owns a program that each resident gives him 180 a week plus 5 $ a day they sleep past 6:05 am.....there about 35 of us now...thats 25,200$ a month. for three houses, and 2 vans to keep up. the amazing thing this man spends nearly all that money makeing the place better.<br />hes a freaking genius that started w/ nothing, not even a mind worth having to owning a program that keeps him clean and a large nascar memorbila (sp) store that groses him plenty of money. and LOTTTSSSS of carss!. he sounds so professional...yet he looks like a long haried redneck( for lack of a better description) his hair goes down to his belt.<br />oh shit im at work and we got 8 new pdi's (new cars) i have to inspect.<br /><br />will urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:addict_of_any:1503 2005-04-25T18:13:41Z 2005-04-25T18:13:41Z Nothing today has been put in my life that i cant handle. i have been <br /><br />doing so good im scared, im scared of somthing bad happening that i "feel" <br /><br />i cant handle. i have people today...that realllly care for me, not that <br /><br />generic "its will" crap. i have people that want me to suceed in a area <br /><br />called life. ive delt w/ nothing more sever that anyone ive ever met, the <br /><br />proplem i really had was will, not you. but i made ever person place or <br /><br />situation, some fact of my life unaccetable to me. i made those people <br /><br />the problem, i made what they did, whether it affected me the problem. and <br /><br />untill i accepted people and places and situations exactly the way they are <br /><br />supposed to be at this moment in time. <br /> to me it sounded simple not to let people bother me.....but its a fuking <br /><br />pain. ive been clean for sixth months trying to fix that and its gotten <br /><br />better, but i tend to let people upset me. <br />this guy told me, when i wake up, allow 3 assholes today and just deal with <br /><br />them and dont blow up at them. he said when u go brush your teeth and look <br /><br />up in the mirror, youve already seen one of them, only 2 more to go :P.<br /> but anyhoo im in this program that magnifies life on lifes terms times <br /><br />10. its not a easy place to live at, but ive gotten better to be around, <br /><br />im actually starting to work on me now. before i got here..i <br /><br />thought...that me getting better as a person just happens over <br /><br />time...well...i have to make myself better. i never tried that before, ive <br /><br />never met anyone before i got here that tried to make themselves better. <br /><br />them like me were oblivious to that fact.<br /> i live with about 9 guys in my house, the youngest being me the next <br /><br />youngest is 28, then they hit about late 30's and earlie 40's. same in the <br /><br />rest of the houses. there are 3 people including myself around 18-20 out of <br /><br />35 people...now that i think about it 2 now after one left. its not easy. i <br /><br />aggravate alot of people because of my age and my defects. but i need that, <br /><br />because when im barable to 35 bitter men, i know i can be appeasing to much <br /><br />more "normal" people.<br /> i dont have to live w/ fear today, i dont have to lie, or cheat or steal. <br /><br />i have to do what right morally...not meaning i follow all rules set by <br /><br />this government, i speed like a son of a bitch, i jay walk...small simple <br /><br />things. i dont have to be agry today...because anger is actually a bi <br /><br />product of what i really feel inside, its what kept humans safe when they <br /><br />needed to defend themselves. i think ive baballedlabbled enough...this make <br /><br />me feel better, but i have to watch out...becuase vertain feelings will get <br /><br />me high.<br /><br />will. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:addict_of_any:943 2005-02-03T18:14:54Z 2005-04-15T18:05:07Z will_neville@lycos.com my new email if u ahve to get in touch w/ me urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:addict_of_any:579 2005-01-31T20:38:36Z 2005-01-31T20:38:36Z will is going to get a new email that i can check<br />yay